In this trying time I thank you for many things. First of all Lord, I thank you for all the people that you've sent into our lives to support us with kind words, thoughts, and prayers to sooth the pain. I also am thankful for all the food you sent, and not having to cook for few days really helped me out. I also thank you for sending kind people to help pay for Averie's funeral and the kind folks at the funeral parlor that allowed me to make payment arrangements so I could make sure the boy was taken care of in a way that was kind to the parents.
I also thankyou for opportunity to meet Averie's other family and for the opportunity to meet his great great grandfather.
Most of all, I thank you for allowing me to be Averie's Nana for a short time. I really enjoyed playing with him, and cuddling him. He made me so very happy while he was here and I'll never ever forget the little angel. I'll be glad when I get to see him again. I'm ready for more of his little hugs and sloppy kisses. I also thank you for giving Angela the strength you have and I see now that Averie is still touching her life even through death.
I'm sorry I got mad at you Lord. It just really hurt when you took him home. I wasn't expecting it, and was looking forward to him running after the other grandkids and chasing after them all. There were so many things I looked forward to doing with him. I wanted to teach him to fly a kite, go fishing, toss ball with him. I know I am still blessed with two others, but forgive my selfishness...I really love having the little guy around. I was already to make him and Aidan matching hats for this winter, and planning on having them some matching jackets as well. Now I'm going to have to console myself by making a quilt for Angela with his little clothes. I'd really appreciate it, if you'd give me the strength to do this and help me to get it finished.
I guess that's all I had to say to you for now. Give the boy a big hug for me, and kiss his little cheeks. Tell him that Nana loves him, and his cousins miss him. His momma and daddy are being strong for him, and his aunties are too. I hope he's having a good time up in heaven with his grandpa Darnell, and papaw Lonnie. Look down on us from time to time, and let us know with a kiss.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
No words can describe the grief I feel. The Lord took my beautiful boy home today. I'll never forget you Averie...the cute little bubble you blew on my shoulder, the toothless grin that made me so happy. A big peice of my heart is gone and I miss you already. I love you Averie, forever and a day!